O My Stars!

2010 07 31

2010-07-31T08:18:00.009+08:00

it's back people! my blog's back!

actually i'm back and my blog never really went anywhere...anyways!

in the army! i'm in the army! so many things to do in the army! like saikang! or the means of doing the work of one who has nothing to do. basically, my saikang is packing goodie bags for the SYOG. from a late-february enlistment, to 4 months in basic training, to passing out less than a month ago to this packing shit. it's quite the ride, but one must learn to endure, right? that's what i'm doing for myself, just because i know that it wouldn't be long before i get to be up there where my sergeants and commanders are, i hope. yup, the things that they have taught me is truly invaluable, and it's because of all these things that i yearn to be just like them, a commander myself. of course, the saf somehow has ways of choosing the very people who don't want to be commanders in the very position they have refused. just like a couple of my friends. but well, there's still a chance for me, all i have to do is just go through my course and hope that i get picked to go through the leadership course.

so here's the end of my post. will start posting my usual stuff very soon. cheers!

2009 11 18

2009-11-18T14:07:00.006+08:00

it's been over a month since i've posted. all i can say is that the 'a' levels have been tough thus far, but the worst of it has hit and passed.

the first week was the literal killer week. piled onto the panic, desperation and tiredness the schedule brought down on me was the worst case of gastric flu in years, apparently brought down by something i might have or have not eaten.

it was a real hindrance; because of it, i could not bring myself to study for possibly the most crucial week of the 'a' levels. all i could do is to rest for the one day, hope and pray that it would get better, and just move on.

of course i had to manage somehow. and i did. with a lot of difficulty. all i had was a piece of advice from someone. he said to me, "pray, stay focused, and believe in yourself." i did just that.

i had 7 papers to tackle in the first week: 2 mt'b' papers, both gp papers, both maths papers and a chemistry paper. i struggled to find the right mood to study. even though it did not matter to me if i did well or not, i still struggled.

i forced myself against my own will. not something that many would do, but i had to. i forced myself to fight through the illnesses and pain, to overcome all the distractions around me, so that i could focus on the task at hand.

before i knew it, the week was over. but it was only the first week. i still had just over 2 weeks left. i found the most well-deserved rest that weekend. i managed to get my newer illnesses treated. another would hit me 2 days later though. i went to school yesterday for yet another chemistry paper with my newly-acquired throat infection. i sat in the cold of the exam hall for 2 hours, constantly shivering and sniffling, waiting for the moment the chief examiner would announce that we could leave.

now, i find myself here, holding my physics textbook and posting on my currently-inactive blog. all i want to do is sleep. and get rid of this pain in my writing hand that seems to come rather infrequently today. oh well.

i guess shit happens for a reason: so that life is less static and we grow in resilience with every shitty moment that we experience. i hope that the 'shit' i go through now helps me be better. just like the shit that you go through so you can be better yourself.

peace out,

xΝΐς Јμδεx™

quote of the day:

"argument is meant to reveal truth, not to create it." - edward de bono

bible verse of the day:

"the lord your god in your midst, the mighty one, will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing." (zeph 3:16)

2009 10 04

2009-10-04T11:31:00.003+08:00

i've no idea why people say straight edge is a cult or some shit like that, but it really is not. it's just a way of life, a means to self-control and less reliance on others. as far as the movement is concerned, it is only for those who choose to believe to see the true, undeceptive reality of life that others have fallen for because of influences that are, more than anything, a materialistic influence and sense of indulgence. what it means is that we are more considerate for ourselves and the people around us.

i mean, let's face it. drunk driving. lung cancer. spitballing. hiv & aids. causes of death becoming a common thing around us. do we care? no. we just sit around and hope it doesn't happen to us. when it does, what then? nothing, because by that time we'd have already taken away the one thing that keeps us, our own lives. when we are asked to look within ourselves, it becomes a chore. we don't because the reality of ourselves and our eventual fate is something that we never want to accept. you know the saying "live life to the fullest", or maybe "live and let live". we also know to "let bygones be bygones". being straight edge means you've already thought about the consequences and have decided to change all that into something better for yourself and your loved ones - family and friends alike.

all that jazz aside, some good news and some bad ones too.

good news.

mom's decided to have christmas dinner at our home december 26; family only though, our place is too small for a big crowd.

my tl'b' oral exam is over, though i didn't think i did all that well, what with the extreme nervousness and all.

my family and i will be going up to malaysia to visit some relatives, espacially the new addition to their family, charissa. it'll be my first time seeing my 2nd cousin. i can't wait!

bad news.

i didn't do so well for my prelims. ok, i did a lot worse than i expected, nothing to be even the least bit happy about! 1 month to my A's and i still have a hard time coping. i just need to endure a month of practically non-stop studying. and i need to have faith and pray that god helps me in this dire time of desperation.

my eye's killing me! i could not stop rubbing my right eye since last week and it's gone all red and stuff, not to mention the burning feeling with tremendous pain! my doc gave me antiseptic eye drops to apply, but still nothing. i think my eye needs to be removed, and soon! argh!

so that's it for now...will be back when i next have free time! cheers!

quote of the day:

"conservation is a state of harmony between men and land." - aldo leopold

bible verse of the day:

"i sought the lord, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears." (ps 34:4)

2009-09-11T17:25:00.001+08:00

i'm a new man. i've decided to go in a direction that's benefitial to me and the world i want to change. i've chosen the life of a straight edge(sXe) follower. that's why you would see my name with 'x's and more of stuff like that.

to be honest, it's quite the inevitable, espacially since my values and that of the sXe are quite closely tied. of course, i also have to credit cm punk for his great influence in the independents and, at present, in the mainstream. of curse, i did not just decide to become sXe. i really researched on it, as well as ask some of my ex-classmates who are already sXe followers about the reality of it, and the answer was not pleasant but enough to convince me that it would suit me better to have the "X" on the back of my hands with pride than just allowing myself to be seduced by the very indulgences of my friends.

of course, now i can watch from afar and not say anything because i know deep in my heart that their choice of lifestyle would eventually have leap out of the frying pan and into the fire. losing my father to cigarettes was as bad as it could get; but it gets worse. i find out that some of the very people i see regularly in school drink and smoke just as well. fortunately for me, i have chosen a pro-life, pro-choice and anti-alcohol, anti-drug, anti-casual sex, anti-violent path that makes me a better man and the bigger person.

being sXe has also helped me to be less temperemental, less annoying and more open to others. i also realised how much i want to be a servant of god and do good for myself and everyone around me. if only i could have changed sooner, i would then have tried to convince my friends to change their ways and be better for themselves. of course, no one has to be sXe to be clean. there're even sXe followers who were once corrupt and full of sin and have changed for themselves.

quote of the day:
in light of my new life i decided to quote the lyrics of the song that started the sXe movement.

this is "straight edge" by minor threat.

"i'm a person just like you
but I've got better things to do
then sit around and fuck my head
hang out with the living dead
snort white shit up my nose
pass out at the shows
i don't even think about speed
that's something I just don't need
i've got the straight edge

i'm a person just like you
but I've got better things to do
then sit around and smoke dope
'cause I know I can cope
laugh at the thought of eating ludes
laugh at the thought of sniffing glue
always gonna keep in touch
never want to use a crutch
i've got the straight edge"

2009 07 22

2009-08-22T11:38:00.000+08:00

a post in my blog these days is really coming up a dime a dozen. i sometimes wonder why i even bother keeping a treasure such as this only to hve it brushed aside. the realisation of this really started to kick in whenever i revisited this place that has seemed quite controversial but empty in any real emotion. i mean, i seem to be saying things i don't mean, like when i said "crap" loudly when we were evaluating jon's paragraph during gp lesson yesterday and people became outraged at the very notion that it may be in reference to jon's comic but sensible paragraph. it hurts when you just say something that just comes out and you instantly fill yourself with remorse and regret the way you are. i can really say with little valour that i despise that way that i am and the way i should not be. i'm just going to leave this post as it is here. no inspirational quotes, not a verse from the bible, nothing.

2009 07 29

2009-07-29T11:24:00.006+08:00

welcome back! time to break out the champagne!

of course, there's going to be a few changes:
1. it hurts me to say that i can only allow certain people to see my blog. no offence, it's just that it seems that a lot more people than i expected read my blog and get the wrong ideas about me. i do not want to put myself through explaining why i am the way that i am, so only people that i strongly feel comfortable reading my blog would be able to do so. to the others who are not in this group of people, pleas understand that i'm not against you or anything, but i really think that my life and my mind is way more complicated, so i want to minimise any kinda of collateral damage i may verbally inflict on you guys, and for those of you who feel that i have done wrong towards you in doing so, i sincerely apologise from the bottom of my heart. so i guess this would be my 1 week notice before my blog leaves public access...

2. i'll be adding some other stuff in the boxes around, most likely in the one to the right of the main text box, that is, this one,----------------------------------------------->
so that it'll be a little more interesting('cuz even i think my own blog looks way too dull!). i was thinking of a clock, but i'm not too sure if it would be a good idea...let's see how i feel about it later on.

3. the posts will all have quote and a verse from the bible just for the sake of my inspiration, but i hope that you who read it will also be inspired. of course, following this post, the quotes and bible verses will be at the beginning of each post rather than at the end like it is currently; in time i will be editing all my previous posts to suit the change in format.

4. last, but not least, i will be adding some music, perhaps a couple of my x japan collection with some of my favorites from other artistes. it's nice to create a relaxing atmosphere in a blog, so i'll be doing that. my previous playlist bummed out on me, so i'll have to recreate a newer and better one.

so for now, cheers! =)

quote of the day:
"the only true wisdom is in knowing you know nothing." - socrates

bible verse of the day:
"for thus says the high and lofty one who inhabits eternity, whose name is holy: "i dwell in the high and holy place, with him who has a contrite and humble spirit, to revive the spirit of the humble, and to revive the heart of the contrite ones." (is 57:15)

2009 07 23

2009-07-23T17:58:00.002+08:00

2nd day at home, and it already feels like i'm reliving the uber-boring june holidays. how weird is that? (not really that weird, to be honest...) woke up at about 8.30 just to reply to my home tutor mr lee's sms that i was not going to be in school to fulfill my 2-day medical leave; played mafia wars, then went straight back to sleep right after that. woke back up about noon when ms koh(my other home tutor) called to ask(again!!) why i was not in school today. so i had lunch and started on building on my mafia wars character again. i never knew that it could be so addictive. i even feel like playing it right now. maybe i will!!! that's one good thing about today. the other is not seeing voldermort for all my lessons for the day(phew!); it really is hard to have to avoid having your face seen by the very person you want dead. hahas...anyways, cheers!

quote of the day:
"if everyone is thinking alike, then somebody isn't thinking." - george s. patton

bible verse of the day:
"father, i desire that they also whom you gave me may be with me where i am, that they may behold my glory which you have given me; for you loved me before the foundation of the world." (john 17:24)

2009 07 22

2009-07-22T19:12:00.003+08:00

woke up feeling like the world crashed down on me. it really sucks, what with all the things that have happened in the last few days, and being sick kinda makes my life right now even more down-shifting than before i went to bed last night. all i can do is get better and hope and pray that i can forgive my close friend, and i hope and pray that she can forgive me also for being too pushy; of course, i also pray that she'd be able to understand the whole situation at the same time. sigh...

so as a result of my influenza(which is most definitely not h1n1!), i stayed at home and went to see the doctor at about 2pm. had enough time to sleep in a little more. on the way home from the doctor's, i realised that my classmates had to do that uber-ridiculous and complicated racial harmony dance; for one, i'm sure glad i didn't have the displeasure of having to endure the self-embarrassment of doing that dance with my kickboxing-stiff legs. i'm also glad that i neither have to hear about my alleged relations to the eclipse, nor do i have to make attempts to avoid any line of sight of voldermort in physics. do you know how hard it is to get a lying bitch out of your sight without having her say to her friends that it was awkward to be in the same room as what she supposes is her stalker? i feel sorry for her friends who have to endure her lies...i worry they wouldn't know what would hit them when she decides to have her way over her friends. sigh again...

anyways, pray i get better! cheers!

quote of the day:
"the shortest way to do many things is to do only one thing at once." - samuel smiles

bible verse of the day:
"and the glory which you gave me i have given them, that they may be one just as we are one: i in them, and you in me; that they may be made perfect in one, and that the world may know that you have sent me, and have loved them as you have loved me." (john 17:22-23)

2009 07 20

2009-07-20T20:19:00.002+08:00

i feel sad. i feel like i've lost my closest, most trusted friend. all i asked was for a lunch date just to hang out. instead it was misconstrued as a date, and her friends, one in particular that seems to hate me with a reason that does not exist, seem to deliver the opinion that i want a lot more. all this seems to be, despite the fact that we've made a year-old deal that nothing more than friendship can come between us. above all that, she seems to be lying to me about certain things, and she hates liars and backstabbers like nothing. imagine that - the irony of it all! i honestly have so much feelings of anger and feel betrayed at the same time; then again, i don't want to lose the friend that has overtaken my bestest friend ever in earning my trust. she's literally my closest friend and the only person that i dare talk to about anything, partially because it's literally written in the stars that nothing more can happen between us, i guess it's god's way of saying that he's found me a friend that can mean so much more than the girl of my dreams...go figure.

i can only be angry for so long, but in all honesty i can't let this fester too long, else i'll very quickly be losing the friends i have, a few at a time...and soon, i'll be left all alone. if that ever happens, i just want to have this person as my close friend, whether or not she becomes my only friend. i can just pray that i can be less irrational about this and learn to forgive her and myself as quickly as possible.

school was somewhat fun today. during physics, the first time we've been rebanded, i find myself being banded with the one i call 'voldermort', though i thank jon jon and nadiah for sitting in 2 seats that visually block all sight that i have of this person. mr daniel chong asked what we did during the holidays to prepare for our physics exams; when it was my turn, i said i spent 2 hours revising for physics and the rest of the holidays sleeping in late, playing my xbox live account and going out with friends. it was fun, 'cuz we also found out that jon jon stoned(as in sit, stare blankly and do absolutely nothing at all!!) for most of the holidays! hilariousity that was, as was the reaction on mr chong's face!

maths saw mrs chong's class join ours as she was going to be away for 3 weeks on course. yet again, voldermort's in my class again, this time for maths. of course all our seats are reshuffled, and i finally get to sit in front! more focus and attention at last! the bad news, though, was that maisha was spotted with a 37.6 deg temperature and i was right next to her! already there's been an entire class that's been on loa because one guy there caught the h1n1 virus. what if i'm forced to endure the same? hmm...

gp's the usual half-fun, half-annoying spot. apart from dinesh's ironically racist and prejudice jokes, it was fun. i kind of hate it, though, that dinesh makes fun of my colour, race and sexuality while everything he's been saying about me seems to fit him more, especially since he seems a little too interested in me and he seems to talk and act in a rather peculiar manner, but let's keep that our little secret...

during p.e., we did that ridiculously complicated and silly racial harmony dance routine, and boy was that weird! the thing that peeved me more was that soffian, fie and farhaan(what do they obviously have in common? go figure...) were literally f*cking irritating me just because we were doing a little bhangra routine in the dance, and they kept making negative racial connotations towards me juzt because of that! i honestly wanted to kill them so badly, just torture them slowly until they begged me to kill them, but i wouldn't, i'd let them kill themselves instead! *laughs with pure evil* moving along...

so i went with terence to mac's at yew tee and we talked about something personal. then i went home, and started to feel bad because i asked my close friend to come online but she could not because she was going to sleep wheshe got home. for some reason i really felt angry but guilt-ridden at the same time. hence i decided to blog all that and the day's events as a result.

cheers!

p.s. if you know who i speak of, keep it to yourself, though i really hope that the person i write about would read this so i can get the whole misunderstanding out of the way. she really does mean that much to me! hahas..

now for some inspirational stuff...

quote of the day:
"if you learn from defeat, you haven't really lost." - zig ziglar

bible verse of the day:
"the lord said to him, 'well done, good and faithful servant; you were faithful over a few things, i will make you ruler over many things. enter into the joy of your lord.' " (mat 25:21)

2009 07 18

2009-07-18T22:40:00.003+08:00

have not blogged in a while, so i'll try to sum up the last 2 weeks as much as possible.

the whole of last week saw 3 more papers completed. refer to my posts with my mid-year(a.k.a. prelims 1) timetable to find out which papers were done.

this week has been kind of depressing, more because of my exam results. of course, it's not the only thing bothering me; something that i would never dream of thinking about has actually become my short-term goal. on one hand, i find myself persisting in pursuing this thing and want to make it a reality; on the other hand i think that i'm just making too much out of it and hope that i'll choose to either wait for a better time in the future or drop it, and hope it works out for the best no matter the eventual decision.

my exam results are nothing short of abysmal. i've failed all 3 of my h2's, but managed to scrape through with a pass in gp. my confidence in my ability has faltered by a fraction, but it's still there. my only hope is that i'll get into the groove of the a levels, but more importantly i need to find a real source of inspiration and motivation.

quote of the day:
"the main thing is to keep the main thing the main thing." - stephen covey

bible verse of the day:
"but now thus said the lord that created thee, o jacob, and he that formed thee, o israel, fear not: for i have redeemed thee, i have called thee by thy name; thou art mine." (is 43:1)

2009 07 05

2009-07-05T23:42:00.003+08:00

tomorrow's my ns medical. the good thing is, i won't be going there alone, i'll have terence and fie along with me for the same reason. the bad things are, i've got no idea what to expect, i'll be without a cellphone, and i've yet to revise for tuesday's maths paper 2. i'd probably need a miracle to sustain my distinction right about now. i'd also need to be lucky to find payphones all allong the way. furthermore, i do not even know what my fate is after this year for the next 24 months; i honestly dread even knowing that what would happen to me in that time is entirely decided by the very people i dare not put my trust in, and my life could possibly meet its end ever so quickly. i probably have to prepare a will for all the assets with my name on it. perhaps i seem too paranoid; then again, perhaps not.

quote of the day:
"faced with what is right, to leave it undone shows a lack of courage." - confucius

bible verse of the day:
"jesus said, 'and this is life eternal, that they might know thee the only true god, and jesus christ, whom thou hast sent.' " (john 17:3)

2009 07 03

2009-07-03T22:25:00.001+08:00

week 1:
2906 1300 h2 phy/1(*) - done
3006 1300 h2 maths/1 - mc
0107 1300 h2 chem/1 - done
0207 1300 h2 phy/2(*) - done
0307 0830 h2 chem/2 - done

week 2:
0706 0830 h2 maths/2
0906 1300 h2 chem/3
1007 1430 h2 phy/3(*)

this week's been quite something. to be honest, i kinda felt moody with the week's developments, what with exams and all. next week's agenda is more exams and ns medical on monday. until next week's over, i'm gonna be looking forward to next weekend...when i can be free of exams and crap like that. "phew!" in advance, for shizzles!

quote of the day:
"peace cannot be kept by force; it can only be achieved by understanding" - albert einstein

bible verse of the day:
"if my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land." (2 ch 7:14)

2009 06 29

2009-06-29T18:05:00.003+08:00

week 1:
2906 1300 h2 phy/1(*) - done
3006 1300 h2 maths/1
0107 1300 h2 chem/1
0207 1300 h2 phy/2(*)
0307 0830 h2 chem/2

week 2:
0706 0830 h2 maths/2
0906 1300 h2 chem/3
1007 1430 h2 phy/3(*)

now i have to study for a maths paper tomorrow. toodles.

2009 06 28

2009-06-28T23:49:00.007+08:00

tomorrow's the first of my 1st prelims a.k.a. mid-years. here's the lineup:

week 1:
2906 1300 h2 phy/1(*)
3006 1300 h2 maths/1
0107 1300 h2 chem/1
0207 1300 h2 phy/2(*)
0307 0830 h2 chem/2

week 2:
0706 0830 h2 maths/2
0906 1300 h2 chem/3
1007 1430 h2 phy/3(*)

as you would have noticed, i've put a (*) for my physics papers. the reason is simple: i'm not standing for undeserving and unwarranted crap that my physics teacher(who, by the way, is my home tutor) has to dish out to me and a few of my friends who also have had to put up with biased crap and favoritism for a long time. so i'll take the next step and have my extremely low grades show how good a job she does for the few of us. stupid? yes, but when you play mind games, the silliest things can sometimes be the way to go for a bit before you shift up a gear. hence, i'll not be really doing much for the physics paper 1.

moving along, this is going to be anything but a good 2 weeks. apart from my exams, i've got my ns medical on the 6th of july and i worry slightly about that, but it's kind of a done deal that i'll be heading into camp early and seeing through the full 12+ months. so now i'll reluctantly "brush" up on my physics before going through my maths to prepare for tuesday's maths paper 1.

quote of the day:
"things do not happen. things are made to happen." - john f. kennedy (very fitting, huh?)

bible verse of the day:
"blessings are upon the head of the just, but violence cover the mouth of the wicked." (prov 10:6)

r.i.p. farrah fawcett 2 feb 1949 - 25 jun 2009
r.i.p. michael jackson 29 aug 1958 - 25 jun 2009

2009 06 20

2009-06-20T15:26:00.006+08:00

i'm not going to talk about friday because i found out a piece of news that i could not, and still cannot believe that it's happening; maybe i may reveal bits of this in the days to come, but just not now.

i just found out after reading the news online that school's probably going to be out for a while longer than the 4 weeks of holiday because of the h1n1 virus that's taking it's toll here in singapore. it's true. imagine having just 12 at the end of one week, and 102 at the end of the subsequent week; it's kinda scary, i know. maybe i'll have a slightly longer period to catch up with all the revision that i've yet to do with the last of the official 4 weeks of the june break. maybe i'll make a couple of calls to a couple of people who i can really talk to, just to pass the time, or maybe just for fun, or to just fill the void that seems to be inside me. i will not tell you who either, only the people who get the call will know. sorry, but just need some space for some privacy. moving along...

so i've recently reformatted and re-edited my blog. it's a better skin from the last one; this one's simpler, easier on the eyes, and kind of sophisticated-looking. i've also put up stuff that i had in my very, very old format here like my tagboard(on the right) and the jukebox with my x japan favorites(also on the right). if you see the top, there're 3 sections: 1 for my info, one for links(to which more will be added later), and one for something else(i'll decide that later). so yea, that's it for now.

quote of the day:
"people only see what they are prepared to see." - ralph waldo emerson
"love looks through a telescope; envy, through a microscope." - josh billings

bible verse of the day:
"in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. for i am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of god, which is in jesus christ our lord" (rom 8:37-39)

2009 06 19

2009-06-19T00:08:00.008+08:00

so yet again, we see here another canyon of regular posts. right now i've not posted since sunday; this post, though, is one that i've been witing to post with some sad news for some, but here goes:

sunday:
nothing doing other than same old same old. didn't sleep so well so decided that since i was already up at 7am that i'd go to church. came home, constantly between sleep and insomnia. if i wasn't sleeping i was playing xbox, reading some book or newspapers, having a meal, surfing the net, or watching tv. kinda boring.

monday:
at school in the morning for paper 3 of the mock chem exam. after that, went to sam's place for a while so that he could help me do up a new blogskin(the one just before the skin up now). due to faulty internet connection, decided otherwise. tagged along to meet mingyu at swenson's at west mall; the 3 of us had the exact same lunch there: each an exec lunch of ribeye, cream of chicken(sotd) and cookies 'n cream ice-cream. the only difference was i had my steak med-rare(but full of blood!!!) and theirs were rare(with less blood!!! wtf?!?!?). had a good talk, the 3 of us before we went home. caught 40 winks. searched online for a new blogskin(the one you see now, not the best choice though) and did all the stuff with sam online via email/msn. set up the blogskin, edited a bit, slept.

tuesday:
did absolulely nothing, the whole honest truth. the day was as dull as watching paint dry. did do a bit of imagination; thought about how life would be if some things did or did not happen, ventured a little too far, now have awful thoughts about things that i should not be imagining. so that's my day! dumb, huh?

wednesday:
overslept, so could not make mock chem exam papers 1&2. played xbox, watched tv, read books. that's it.

thursday:
met soffian at dhoby ghaut mrt at about 9.45(15 mins late) but still had to wait for others. later joined by jo, alan, yee nern, fie and nicholas tan. went to nearby to play lan. played dotA like crap but not too bad(i guess...) in left 4 dead. yee nern and nick tan left at about 2+, then alan's friend came later and played with us. fie left at about 4 as he had tuition at 4, which he was already late for. i left at 6 and went back home. slept after a shower, woke up to dinner from the fridge, and then started blogging this post.

some inspirational stuff...

quote of the day:
"a gentleman is one who puts more into the world than he takes out." - george bernard shaw
"when people do not respect us we are sharply offended, yet in his private heart no man much respects himself." - mark twain

bible verse of the day:
"My children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue, but in deed and in truth." (1 john 3:18)

a tribute to the late mitsuharu misawa:
before i finish this post, i would like to take some time to pay tribute to a puroresu legend who passed away suddenly on saturday: mitsuharu misawa. while wrestling in a ghc tag team championship match with partner go shiozaki against champions bison smith and akitoshi saito at a pro-wrestling noah event in hiroshima, misawa received a routine back suplex from saito; instead of him getting up like he usually would, misawa lost consciousness. upon being taken to a nearby hospital, he was pronounced dead at 10.10pm. it is later seen that he died from severe spinal damage.

misawa is known around the world as one of the best wrestlers to have competed in the squared circle. from his gimmick as the 2nd tiger mask in the 80's in all japan pro wrestling to his unmasked self rising the ranks in the company's rosters, misawa would win tag team titles as well as singles heavyweight championships, and engaged in feuds with top stars, making him one of all japan's aces then.

upon being cast out as president of all japan in 2000, 1 year after his appointment, misawa took a majority of the all japan talent in hopes of the creation of a new company that not only pushed the best on the roster but also gave young talent a chance to achieve similar or better glory. in august 2000, pro-wrestling noah was born.

in noah, misawa would once again re-engage in feuds, both in and outside of the noah roster, winning tag team and singles heavyweight title as a full-time competitor and also helped to push lower-card talent, as well as maintaining a strong position as noah's president.

as a wrestler, some of his greatest feuds have been against the likes of kenta kobashi, jun akiyama, toshiaki kawada, jumbo tsuruta, stan hansen, "dr death" steve williams, akira taue, takeshi morishima and KENTA. his highest profile tag team partners include kobashi, keiji muto, yoshinari ogawa and, most recently until the day of his death, rookie go shiozaki (who won noah's top prize the day after misawa's passing).

his influence in the sport has made him a worldwide legend of pro-wrestling, and his death comes as nothing short of shocking and a great loss to fans and competitors alike everywhere around the world. he will be sadly missed.

r.i.p. mitsuharu misawa (june 18 1962 - june 13 2009)

2009-06-14T00:30:00.002+08:00

have not posted much in the last couple of days, so here's a rundown on stuff.

thursday:
woke up at 2, bought lunch and stuff. after eating, i wanted to study for the mock chem exam next week, but kind of not in the studying mood. i've no idea why but i kinda felt a little empty, the same feeling i've been having for a while, but it just sucks to even think about it. so i played my xbox instead. then watched some tv, played a little more xbox, then at about 3 in the morning, after playing xbox, i felt sleepy but could not sleep, and i wanted to study but could not find it in me to open my chem textbook. so i was on my lappy instead right up to 5.

friday:
still could not sleep, i decided to watch the original animated alice in wonderland movie until 7am. left my bedroom to eat cornflakes for breakfast, then watch tv. by this time, i was too damn retarded from not sleeping the whole night that i opened up a bottle of 2000 red shiraz cabernet and drank the whole bottle; a burning sensation inside my throat and stomach followed. by now i was sure that it's about time i slept; the cold i suddenly caught confirmed this. so i went to bed as my brother woke up to go to school. had the worst nightmare anyone could have after sunrise, and i was so into the reality of my "dream" that abruptly awoke when i rolled off the side of my bed and bumped my head against the wall. so i went to buy my sister's and my lunches. after eating, i took some painkillers for the bump my head took and was ko'd until 9pm. woke up to have dinner, watched friday night smackdown! and went to bed for the third time that day.

today:
for some reason, waking up today was an extreme chore as i kept waking up and falling back to sleep for a good 4 times until my mom finally woke me up for lunch when she came home at 2. ate, took some painkillers, slept then woke up at 8. had dinner, played xbox, then decide to blog all this. i realise, though, that as i'm blogging, i kinda feel that i've been a damn good bit lazy(!?!) the whole time, especially this week. maybe it's about time to start being a bit more serious about my life. and i'm also thinking about what fyra told me last week about stuff. maybe i'm looking at this whole thing somewhat wrongly. maybe i should just think about stuff more, rather than just doing what i feel like doing or depending on my mood of the day.

quote of the day:
"try not to become a man of success, but rather try to become a man of value." - albert einstein
"change will not come if we wait for some other person or some other time. we are the ones we've been waiting for. we are the change that we seek." - barack obama

bible verse of the day:
"as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us." (ps 103:12)

2009 06 12

2009-06-12T03:02:00.008+08:00

i'm too tired to blog, so i'll just put some inspirational stuff for you guys to read.

quotes of the day:
"some cause happiness wherever they go; others whenever they go" - oscar wilde
"they always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself." - andy warhol

bible verse of the day:
"...for i know the thoughts that i think toward you, says the lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end." (jer 29:11)

hope either help you, if they do. cheers!

2009 06 11

2009-06-11T02:27:00.011+08:00

the first official post! time to open 'le champagne'... it's quite unusual, though, that i'm blogging my 1st post at 2.30 in the morning; it's even more unusual that people are up on msn at this time of morning...

let's do a runthrough for the last few days.

friday
woke up late, so i decided not to go for maths than be late. i went to meet my uncle (aka my godfather) and cousins, and we went to giant at tampines to buy stuff. my uncle dropped me off at pasir ris mrt at about 12. there i met up with, in chronological order, farhaan & syira, weibin, pengrong, aisah, sam, yingliang(07s1's classmate from pu1), and marcus wu. i went with the rest of the guys (except marcus) to sheng siong supermarket at loyang point to buy stuff (food, drinks, bbq essentials, including coal for burning) for the barbeque later in the evening. as we did, me and sam were eating, or trying to eat, some $1.50 chicken rice along the way, which i didn't have much trouble doing outside of the ntuc supermarket at downtown east (our 2nd stop for ice, skewers and some other stuff beofre the chalet); sam, on the other hand, had many chances to stop and eat but eventually did not finish his packet of chicken rice even when we got to the chalet. we went to the chalet to prepare stuff for the barbeque and the planned surprise for yanping when she was to arrive later (the party was planned for her birthday, which was 5 days later). xianhua & her bf (whose name escapes me), dingkun, soffian, fie, and kins came later. i helped sam and farhaan with preparing some of the food; then i helped yingliang to put up decorations at the balcony and even provided suggestions, for the place to look better and so that we can use up the crappy streamers. then we prepared to surprise yanping; it was weird, 'cuz marcus wu wanted to make the room look like it was for renting a tent or something; it was not very tent-rental-ish, i'll tell you that, but we went along with it anyway. we managed to "surprise" yanping, who, herself, was "surprised" somewat (truth be told, she kind of saw the whole thing coming, i would have myself if it was me). marcus chen came a little after that. then farhaan and syira got the bbq going. so we ate, played games, ate some more, i watched fie rollerblade (like a cautious horse galloping on horseshoes for the first time), i cooked a bit and ate a little more. i then sat around the chalet, talking to some for an average of 2 minutes per conversation, then finally left at about 11pm after a while of doing nothing. i got back home at about midnight, all sticky with muscle pull in both my legs from i-dunno-what, had a nice long bath, then came out to see a birthday cake for me from my mom and siblings. i blew out candles and cut the cake; we ate a slice each. i then got a stomach ache from all the eating i had done the whole day, so i went to bed. i was actually about to take meds for the pain, but it was so intense that i fell asleep with the meds in hand!

saturday
woke up at about 2.30pm. i then had chicken rice for lunch - more like uber-late brunch. an hour after eating, i slept for about an hour. i hit the showers when i woke up again, as we were going to yet another barbeque, my 2nd in 2 days. went to cold storage to buy stuff, but not all, 'cuz we were in a rush to meet my sis, who went to a friend's place after her school's carnival. it was troublesome with her, espacially since she didn't pick up her phone when we called her 100 times in 5 minutes. so we went to my aunt's place in serangoon gardens; i called my other uncles to pick up stuff that we forgot to buy. then i went to play with the new mongrel twin girl-puppies there; managed to get the attention of the playful one, but wanted to play with the the other more cautious one, could not because she was hiding out in the little fir tree in the corner of my aunt's garden. so i then went to get the fire for the grill started. when it was all ready about an hour and a half later, we started to cook the lamb and chicken wings first. for the first hour i was almost like "le chef on le grill". after that i just tried a bit of whatever came fresh off the flames. so about some 2+ hours later, i find myself blowing out candles on another birthday cake followed by cake cutting, and the ceremonious photo-taking-with-the-birthday-boy(aka me) segment that followed. cake was not too bad, enjoyed, went back home, showered, relaxed and finally slept sound at about 4am or so i guess.

sunday
nothing doing. i woke up at 2pm. i felt hungry but did not eat yet. i then jumped to playing l4d on my xbox for a quality hour, except that i couldn't connect to xbox live, so i played campaign with crap a.i. instead. went to church, came back, watched tv, had dinner at about 9, watched more tv, slept. just as i was about to fall asleep, i realised one thing i forgot to do that day - i forgot to watch the week's re-runs of friends!!! that is really, really, uncool, i'll tell you that.

monday
mom had a day off today, so we decided to assemble the shelf from ikea that was to, or not, go into my room for my tv, xbox and other stuff. so i assembled it on my own, moved the semi-ready shelf to my room, only yo realise that it was totally off my dimensions. so it had to go out, but did not just yet. my brother came home from school and justified that the shelf was not worth keeping for a number of reasons. but instead of shifting it out, we decided to adjust it so that we could keep the place neat until a proper shelf comes.
i went with my mom to ikea for a second time in 2 weeks to get the shelf i was eyeing the previous time we were there. we got the data to retrieve the shelf later and went to the restaurant to buy take-out baked chicken leg and meatballs for dinner later; we then collected other stuff, including the shelf i wanted, checked out, wrapped glass and breakable items with paper, and took a cab home. ate dinner, watched tv, then slept after the second episode of friends finished at 2am.

tuesday
woke up and started work on the side table for my room which we bought the day before. abandoned the project halfway through, and ordered sarpino's pizza for my brother, sister and me for lunch. ate then got down to study and fb at the same time. when my mom came home at about 6, she suggested watching a movie later, but i was against it as i had a slight cold then, and it would be a problem, what with the h1n1 crap and all. so they went, i stayed at home alone and decided to finish my side table. when i finished it, i sat and admired my little handywork for a long, long while as i patted myself on the shoulder for a job well done. when the rest of the gang came home, they too praised me for my masterpiece. so the usual - tv + friends, sleep at 2am; this time i went to bed without dinner but full from pizza at lunch.

today
woke up, found out my mom was not going to work, so i went back to sleep. woke up again at 1pm, assembled the last shelf for my tv and xbox, put it in my room, and rearranged a lot of stuff there. tired from all that work, i caught 40 winks for a good 3+ hours. woke up (yet again!) to find that my mom left me her half-eaten lunch of some nasi briyani; i ate that and felt somewhat satisfied that i'd finally filled my stomach. i then sat in front of the tv like a zombie and watched the simpsons, two and a half men, and friends. then my sis came back. i showed her the shelf in my room; instead of admiring that, she made herself comfortable on my bed, a little too comfortable for my liking that i went red over; a heated discussion followed and it took my mom, who had gone out to the doctor's, to resolve the issue. then i finished the shelf that i left unfinished on monday. then i went with my brother to buy food for dinner. this was the first time that the family, except my brother, had icky fast-food for dinner; there just was not any good food around at 9.45pm. so watched medium(my mom's favorite show), then i controlled the tv until 2.30am while using my laptop, then decided to blog, which i did from then until about 4am before saving my blog post. now it's time for my not-so-well-deserved sleep. before i do,

here's my quote of the day:
"love is composed of a soul inhabiting two bodies." - aristotle

nights, people!

2009 06 08

2009-06-09T21:43:00.004+08:00

welcome to my blog!

3 years of no show, and now we're back where we started - at our 1st post! i'd never thought i would do this again because of the things that happened before from the things i wrote that people took a little more literally than i expected... well, that's all in the past; like the saying goes, "let bygones be bygones".

so my official blogging will start in my next blog, whenever it is. i cannot promise a post any time inthee next few days, but i'll try to post my 1st official at the next chance i get.

till next time, cheers! ;)